by The Word Weaver, Deb on February 9th, 2015

​Hubby and I moved across the nation from South Carolina to Wisconsin in November.  We now live in Green Bay—yes, that Green Bay

I love living in a town that pulls together behind one big thing.  It gives you an automatic sense of camaraderie and community.  You see someone wearing a Packer coat or shirt (just about every person you meet), and you smile thinking, “Hey!  New friend!  We both love the Packers!” 


(Hubby, a die-hard Lions’ fan—in truth, you have to be die-hard when you follow them—could probably do with less of the green and gold ferver; but I’ve been a Packer Backer for years, so we manage to cross this monumental marital divide!)  

It’s wonderful to live closer to extended family—frequent dinners together, shopping with my sister, playing with my great-niece and great-nephews, seeing their grins when I walk in the door—oh, all so wonderful!  We're discovering that life from an empty nest has its benefits.  Our neighborhood is lovely and chocked full of friendly dogs and their walkers.  Our house felt like home from the moment we moved in, and we love it here.

In case you’re wondering about the whole “Frozen Tundra” rumor, let me tell you that, yes, it’s truly cold.  However, I’ve learned that temperature is mostly relative.  You just adjust your attitude and outer gear.  In SC, if it was 50, I was cold.  Here, after being in the teens for several days, 30 degrees feels warm. 

Also on that note, if you’re going to move north in the midst of winter after being in the south for nearly 20 years, it’s good to do it when you start having hot flashes.  Hubby and I still fight over the thermostat, but we’ve reversed our positions on the dial.

Despite a good attitude and wonky hormones, cold can still be cold.  I’ve made a discovery today that I’d like to share.  May I be frank?
Sunshine lies. 

Through her teeth.

She appears bright, beautiful, warm, inviting. 

She grins and calls to me, “C’mon out to play!”

Hesitantly I peer outside.  “Are you sure?  I mean, it is February, and it has been pretty cold.”

“Absolutely!  Blue Sky and I are just hanging out.”  

She neglects to mention the menacing presence of another playmate. 

I step out of the shelter of home.  Wind barrels around the corner and stretches out to tag me, slicing through bone and marrow.  He is sharp and serrated.

My face instantly registers unbelief, then shock and awe.  My boots are frozen to the spot.  Blue Sky just shakes his cloudless head.

I recover from the momentary paralysis (which I assume resulted from the ice that had formed in my veins!) and dash back inside.

I can almost hear Sunshine’s chuckle as I glower at her from the window panes.

Defrosting my fingertips by the heater, I wonder anew if Sunshine and Lucy (of Peanuts’ fame) are somehow related.  Fooled again!  Aaughh!

I have got to remember that Sunshine lies.

 

by The Word Weaver, Deb on January 19th, 2015

Photo credit:  Jorgen Weinreich Maltesen, "Twilight at the Lake", Flickr, Creative Commons.

"Echoing the Heavenly Chorus"
 

Capturing my attention and my breath,
Sky at twilight beckons.
Adorned in her deepening cobalt robe, she draws near,
Astonishing me with her rare beauty.

Whispering soft reassurances and open arms,
Sky's soothing glow invites.
Wreathed in age-old diamonds, she steps forth,
Embracing me in her velveteen caress.

Communing one heart and one moment,
Our purposes mingle.
Encircled in an otherworldly essence, we gaze up,
Recognizing God by His holy presence.

Reflecting fierce awe and quiet joy,
Sky and I together exalt.
Conjoined in this sacred hush, we bow down,
Beholding God in His eternal glory.

 

by The Word Weaver, Deb on June 16th, 2014

I really do not want to write this post. 
 
I’m not ready. 

I don’t suppose I’ll ever be ready, but I can’t seem to write about anything else until I tell you what has happened.
 
My Dad—my funny, strong, beautiful Dad who would have been 85 today—is gone. He endured a short illness from which my sister, brothers, and I expected him to rally. One health problem set off a devastating domino effect of other problems which became insurmountable. 
Francis Edward “Andy” Anderson passed into Eternal Arms in the early morning hours on Thursday, February 13, 2014.
 
His death shocked all of us. His absence has altered us in profound ways. The world is a different, darker, more unsettling place without him. Even months later I’m having trouble getting my footing back.
 
Dad was born the year the stock market crashed and grew up during The Great Depression.  In addition to farming, his parents owned and operated a lumberjack camp in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan.  Even for a small boy, chores were plentiful, and he remembered milking cows until his hands were raw. Life was hard.
 
And then life got harder.  His mother died from complications following surgery when he was only eleven years old.  His little sister was then sent to live with an aunt because his father couldn’t care for such a young girl on his own.  In one tragedy, my Dad lost both his mother and his sister.
 
Then when Dad was seventeen years old, his father died in a lumberjacking accident.  Orphaned at seventeen—I cannot even imagine.
 
No wonder commitment and faithfulness were woven through his character. He demonstrated it countless ways through his 20+ years of military service to our country, to his wife, and to his children and grandchildren.  In 1954, he vowed to love my Mom “for better or for worse, in sickness and in health”, and he demonstrated that he meant it for nearly fifty-seven years.
 
No wonder family became his priority once he and my Mom married.  He raised the four of us kids with love and discipline with an emphasis on education and hard work.  Many a report card day, we stammered answers to his stern questions, “Why wasn’t that A- an A?” or “Why wasn’t that B a B+?”  He provided educational resources and insisted that we use them. If we didn’t do our best, we knew that our “ass would be grass” and that Dad “would be the lawn mower.”    
 
Dad didn’t just expect us to learn, he was a life-long learner himself.  He kept busy with wood-working and whittling projects, caning chairs, trying new recipes, reading, and attending plays and concerts. 
 
We knew he was in our corner and believed in us.  His confidence and high expectations shored up our own confidence.  When my second grade teacher told my parents, “Your daughter is so painfully shy that she will be seriously inhibited in life,” he never believed it so I didn’t either. 
 
No wonder love was an action verb in our house. Verbalizing his love didn’t come naturally to Dad until I was 14 and my Mom had a paralyzing stroke; after that, Dad said it often.  Though he improved in speaking words of love, doing things for others always remained his favorite, most natural way of expressing it.  While I was at the hospital giving birth to my firstborn, Dad stopped by my house and snagged my grocery list off the refrigerator.  When I returned, my pantry was full and there were two freshly baked strawberry-rhubarb pies on the counter. He baked treats for my sister’s card club and helped paint my younger brother’s new home.  Rare were the moments he wasn’t doing something for someone.
 
No wonder he was intentional about “showing up” and making memories.  He kidded with and christened our friends with colorful nicknames such as: “Cabbage Head”, “Snot #2”, “Charlie Brown”.  We took incredible family vacations across the United States.  Every winter he built an ice skating rink in the backyard. We went snowmobiling and camping.  His son-in-laws were among his favorite fishing buddies. 
 
Dad was an awesome, fun grandparent. He encouraged their hobbies and interests.  He made special events a priority, attending weddings, graduations, games, and performances of his grandkids. Two years ago, he traveled with my younger brother and sister-in-law to meet us at Cedar Point. He even rode three of the big rides. My daughter updated her Facebook status from the park, writing: “I’m a wuss! My 83 year old Grandpa has ridden more roller coasters than me!”
Dad was one of the most generous, open-hearted people I know.  He enveloped others into his heart and life. He shared stories, jokes, advice, opinions, pies, jam, garden produce, and wood-working creations.   
 
I got my sense of humor from Dad.  We both learned to temper our reactions (most of the time) through the years.  He was opinionated, but he learned to listen.  He let us make mistakes.  He worried about us.  Out-going and funny, he was a master at greeting and welcoming others. “The first time you visit you’re our guest; after that, you’re a habit.”  Then he’d laugh.  Oh, how I miss his infectious laugh.  
Dad shared himself with the world, and we are richer as a result.  He left a treasure-trove of memories. 
 
I had a dream a few weeks ago.  In it, I was planning a big birthday party for my Dad.  I was scurrying around finalizing details and trying to type up all the reasons I was grateful for him.  As the time for the party got closer, I kept frantically saying, “I’m not ready.  I’m not ready.” 
 
Then I awoke and remembered that Dad was gone. 
 
I’m not ready for that either.
 
The hole and the heartache is immense. In the stormy waves of grief, I’m clinging to the One who carries me. 
 
Isaiah 40:11 (NIV) “He tends His flock like a shepherd. He gathers the lambs in His arms; He carries them close to His heart…”


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​You may want to read another post I wrote about my Dad in 2012 called When Superman Ages.

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Copyright 2014, The Word Weaver, Deb Weaver

by The Word Weaver, Deb on January 16th, 2014

When will I learn?  Life is not about me. 
 
Each new year I choose one word to focus upon and to guide me. (Why One Word? Click here to find out.) 
 
. . . At least I used to think that I chose the word.  
In 2011, the word was RADIATE. 
 
It was the most difficult year of my life I found myself faced with frustrating health issues and immersed in grief. I was so deeply submerged in grief, regrets, and sadness, I barely survived, let alone emitted any light. 
 
That fall, I frequently sat out under the stars and sobbed.  Even through the streams of salty tears, I felt and saw the love of a majestic God.  He comforted me.  He sustained me.  He held me.  He reminded me of His Word.  His creation emanated His personal, faithful care.  What I discovered that year was that God’s love radiated to me. 

By 2012, I thought I was healed emotionally to the point of moving forward.  The new word was ADVANCE.  Sounds positive and victorious, doesn’t it?  
Instead, I experienced reoccurring, debilitating bouts of fear.  Often I ended up in a corner, cowering. 
 
Yet, little-by-little, day-by-day, clash-after-clash, His Truth advanced in me.  (<--Click to Tweet)
 
My faith muscles were strengthened.  Do I still face fear?  Yes.  But, as a result of that year, I’m better equipped to do battle with it. 
 
2012 came to a close amidst a month-long sinus infection.  I was too exhausted to consider a new word for 2013.  Then, without any thought or effort on my part, a word floated to the surface of my heart:  PURPOSE.  I thought, “Wow.  That’s a great word.  Yeah, I’ll choose that one.”
 
You’d think I’d learn, wouldn’t you? 
 
In the first book that I picked up in 2013, the first paragraph was about GOD’S PURPOSE.  It was at that moment, I remembered—again—that life is not all about me.  The word was not an accident.  It was not a coincidence.
 
God led me to the word.  He had His purpose that He wanted to reveal to me.  My job was to listen and pay attention. 

So that’s what I did last year.  I listened more than I planned.  I read a lot of inspirational books.   I journaled.  I prayed and pondered.  I even took a few risks (in writing—you may read about it here & here—& personally--here) as I watched and waited.
 
At an amazing blogger’s conference in October, Allume, key components clicked together.  David Walker (a worship leader) said something significant, “So much of our lives and selves goes unnamed.  We cannot confess nor own what we do not name.” 

A workshop speaker, Nasreen Fynewever, said something else that resonated with me.  She said that she’s “intensely interested in people and always asking how she can help.  In doing so she mobilizes others’ dreams.” 
 
Emily Freeman, spoke briefly and asked questions that she also poses in her book, A Million Little Ways*: “What makes you come alive?  What’s most alive within you that you can offer someone else?” 
 
I didn’t know the answers at the time.

Then on Sunday afternoon, I walked down to a local restaurant. As I approached the stoplight, there were three older women standing there.  I noticed one’s perfume and started a conversation with them.  We chatted and delighted together in the moment before the light changed.  Then I went into the restaurant and connected with the waitress. 
 
On my way back to the hotel, thinking about and relishing those interactions, I realized that what makes me come alive . . . is to love. 

Because that has been true of me but has been demonstrated in so many different ways, I didn’t recognize that it was a true purpose of mine.  In fact, so much of my life has seemed scattershot.  I’d see others who seemed to have a very definite, focused purpose and I’d long for it.  
 
I’m now fifty, and I’m finally getting this fundamental part of myself:  my life’s acts will be varied because God has called me to love everywhere—just as He does.  

As a result of this realization, I’m naming and owning it.  

My LIFE PURPOSES (what I hope to BE):
 
  • To be a gentle, beautiful woman of God who quietly yields my will and life to His plan and purposes.
  • To be a Spirit-filled Christian available to be used by God, for His glory in the lives of those within my personal sphere of influence.
  • To BE A WOMAN WHO NOTICES AND LOVES—both God and others—DEEPLY AND WIDELY.
It is my prayer that I would live out His purposes for this life because, simply put, life is not about me!
 
 
End notes: 
 
I’ll be writing soon about My One Word for this year and some LIFE GOALS/DREAMS (what I hope to DO).  I hope you’ll keep coming back!
 
*(I HIGHLY recommend and obnoxiously quote Emily Freeman’s book, A Million Little Ways.  It is a transformational way of thinking about life and our part in it.  She also wrote Grace for the Good Girl which is on my to-read stack.)
 
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Copyright 2014, The Word Weaver, Deb Weaver

by The Word Weaver, Deb on January 13th, 2014

I journal frequently.   It's an on-going conversation between the Lord and me.  There, I write out my everything--the good, the bad, my ugly.  A couple of days ago, I poured out my fear. 

My friend, Christin Ditchfield, (author of What Women Should Know About Facing Fear and more) asked me to guest post using the words I'd written in my journal to complement her blog's theme of Fearless:  

"I live afraid.  I realized that this morning . . ."

To read more, please visit Christin's blog.
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